"So what is your New Year's resolution going to be this year?" It's the same question I get asked every year. I don't really believe in making New Year's resolutions, but in that moment I blurted, "I want to be more brave with my photography and put it out for public viewing." There, I said it. Then I immediately retracted the statement. As I began calculating the risks of vulnerability it would be for me to let people see my work, it felt scary and raw. Yet lately I've been feeling this need to blow open the doors off my crazy fears. Perhaps by letting my work out of it's cage, I might actually be allowing my heart to open in the most wonderful of ways.
Little increments of bravery may not look like much initially, but if I were to draw a line out to the distance, having moved the line by only a few degrees, the change is vast. Back in my flight attendant days I remember having a conversation with a pilot regarding this very thing. On this particular evening we were flying out of New York on our way to the west coast. He said, "We are flying to San Francisco and if I were to change the dial of our heading by just a few degrees we would end up in LA." I had Mike (who is a pilot) look up what the heading would be from NY - San Francisco and it's 281 degrees. NY - LA is 273 degrees, that's only an 8 degree difference. The distance between San francisco and LA is 378 miles, a six hour drive. A prime example of a small shift creating a huge distance out into the future. Initially the shift in degrees is barely noticeable, but over time the change is vast. OK, I have talked myself into my own bit of bravery, I will shift my dial by a few degrees and I believe that I will soon find myself standing in a whole new space.